Often you hear people wanting to forget passed events especially tragic or life altering. They wished it never happened. Without Christ I know I would be right there dreaming for events to be erased. With having a Savior and getting just a small glimpse of His Almighty hand I feel free to open my heart and have no regrets. I live my life fully for Him. I'm not perfect, I still mess up, but I have no doubt that my God who created me out of NOTHING chose and has a reason for every movement I make. Some I will understand and some I may never understand or come close to comprehending.

I never want to forget what God my Savior took my family through this past year. We saw God move like we hadn't before. We saw it was His will to keep my sister here on earth, although during the time we prepared ourselves over and over that it might be His will to take her. He took us through what He did for His Glory! selfish God you say? Yes, my God I serve is a selfish/ jealous God in a perfect way. His attributes are beyond our comprehension.

"I

am

the LORD, that

is

My name;

And My glory I will not give to another,

Nor My praise to carved images."

Isaiah 42:8

"For the LORD your God is a consuming fire,

a jealous God."

Deuteronomy 4:24

If my family didn't have such a freedom in our Lord I think our actions and attitude towards everything would have been different.

He loves us so much that even through hard aches and times of not understanding we have strength knowing He planned this all from the very beginning of time. Nothing we did ever changes His plan. We didn't create God's plan He created us. We might not always have the answer for why bad things happen, but we can have a peace about it. We can't always see the big picture. Something that seems tragic or negative, might just be the opposite for someone else, or take someone else down the path of Salvation.

My family has a peace. Almost loosing my sister four different times has got to be the hardest thing I have gone though so far in my life. What got me through was the peace I have in knowing who my Creator is. Knowing He created out of NOTHING!!!

So I never want to forget. I never want to forget moments that open my eyes even more to who my Creator is. God didn't send my family through that tough time as a punishment, but as a blessing to others as our hearts were shinning for Him.

To God's children it's written:

"In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.

And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who

have been called according to his purpose."

Romans 8:26-28